today is hmm... 16 march...
3 and a half more hours will end my sweet sixteen..
even though it's nt really sweet...

i've been living for 16 years...
and i think i did some reflection on wat i hav done..
but i dun remember it.. = =
so i'll jus type it here...
im so sri to hav shorten memory...

= =

ok..
16 years of life.. wat do i think i've been living so far...
erm.. i dun really remember wat happened when i was 5 or 6 yrs old..
most ppl dun..
so as far as i remembered....

i have been slacking in life...
a failure in most of the things...
i dunno how much but...
1] i failed as a daughter, i do some housework... but i most of the time i created more mess than cleaning... which cause my parents to be fusrated...
2] i failed as a sister... during my bro's training in tekong, the families were asked to write something to encourage him... i realize i dun hav anything to tell him at all.. i always wondered why my bro and mun is so close... im probably jealous of them eventhough i was their sibling too
3] i failed as a student. nt able to keep my grades on the line. my teacher aways say tt im a roller coaster.. my results go up n down.. even my parents gave up for my to score...
4] i failed as a otaku... i love anime and manga... but i dun remember them... jus some bits and pieces... and i dun even remember some of the names of the character...
5] i failed as a girl.. i hav a very very very messed up love life
6] i failed as a worker... i cant complete my work load even though beening hardworkin when all nigel,joachim n benny are playin dota when raymond(my boss) is nt around...
7] i failed as a human...(generally) after so many things i hav done and encounter... i 've got no idea wat i wan to do.. i've got many ccas u noe...
nerdy- librarian
classic - choir
dance- chinese dance
sport- vollyball
clubs - youth flying club, enviroment club
= =
i dun really hav a goal in my life... jus living and wasting time..

if i can name myself.. i'll call myself jack..
quoted from " jack of all trades" haha

haiz...
wat a depressing speech = =
anyway..it's the last 3 hours..so jus let me vent on my uselessness ( nt one's stopping me though)
........................................................................
waa

i've decided nt to celebrate my birthday...
it seems very useless this year... i wonder why...

yosh!
i'll try my best to change in the future...
my goal to live rite now : to find a goal to live for.
=]
happi birthday jack!

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