i like watchin things from a third person point of view...
cos i dun think i will be able to handle that so many situations in life
thats probably why i like reading and watching
namely manga and anime and movies and dramas...
being a outsider can know the whole picture
which is a safer spot to be in
you noe who's having evil thoughts, or who is purely innocent and kind

i like staring at peaceful things.. slow and peaceful
a tree maybe.. with its branches swinging in the gentle wind..
it shows life.. and hav a slow pace..
or maybe the fluffy white cloud above the tree..
looks lik some cooton candy that u can touch when u reach out ur hands
floating and constantly changing it's shape in the clear blue sky
so peaceful... like sucking out all unhappy things from me..
and makes me think alot... positively

i lik kids... or in other words...
my cousins.. there are 10 of them
seriously they are so cute
and super smart... veri energetic..
even though im nt a patient person
i lik the play wif them

i dun lik fast stuff...
cars and buses... makes me dizzy all the time...
esp long rides
i prefer walkin more...
even though i walk veri slow and takes a long period of time

i dun lik my bro's room...
4 white walls and a big window that faces the corridor...
it's so loney... and straight and sharp... lik needles
veri empty
but i always use this room.. cos the com is here

i dun lik when i jus woke up...
nt becos i still wan to slp..
but sometimes is cos i blackout while walking
lik when i got out of my bed and go to the toilet...
all things becomes black and is veri dizzy
can stand or walk straight
but i live here for so long..
i can really go to the toilet wif my eyes close
but once i reach the toilet i need to hold the sink for support
and wait for my sight to clear..
there was once i fell onthe toilet fall cos i was too dizzy...
does this happens to everyone?
or is there something wrong wif me

i feel veri old...
and unexpectedly peaceful...
for now that is...
=]

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